Hi everyone and thanks for reading my blogs this year. We were getting deep into trauma and co-dependency and then life took over. I ended up on television and then I found out that my anonymous self will be having paper published in an academic journal in January 2016 (the first of many hopefully)!
So I have been having a period of self actualisation which seems to have helped lots with my mental state. I feel strangely less neurotic, more fulfilled and whole and have become much more easy going.
I never thought being published with have such a profound affect.
All my life I have struggled to be heard. Growing up in such a dysfunctional family meant that I often felt unheard, dismissed and emotionally muted.
I now feel that internal voice has now begun to be heard.
I still plan to go into EMDR treatment early January to process the emotional trauma from my childhood.
2016 holds much promise.
All given to me by recovery.
I am so grateful, so so grateful for my recovery that I can’t express it in words.
In four days time i celebrate my tenth year in recovery. Thank God!
God Bless you over this festive period, often a tough period for alcoholcs in recovery.
Surround yourself with those who understand and can support you, that is my solution to this alcohol fueled period of the year.
It is a time for haves rather than have-nots and self pity can often seep into my mind. This year it has been replaced big time with gratitude.
Every moment of every day is precious. It is just realising that. It takes time to realise it takes time.
“We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace.”
The Promises. (From pages 83-84 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous).
Have a great one!
Santa is almost ready! Have a lovely and merry Christmas everyone!